So the semester is coming to an end and it's a little bitter sweet for me. Technically I should be graduating in a few weeks but I am not. I am really trying to be ok with not graduating and I try to put on a strong face for all of my classmates but deep down it is hard for me. I know this had to have happened for some reason and I just don't see it right now, but I am hoping I will see the reasoning for this sometime soon.

So since I am not graduating this summer I have to find work for the summer. I am working part time at St. John, which is where I have been working off and on since last summer. I also have an interview for Leon's. It's a restaurant on Brookside but they are opening a branch off Skiatook Lake. I am nervous b/c I have never worked in a restaurant, but i think I will be ok. I am just hoping it will pay well, basically that is why I am even taking the job. I hope I will make good tips so I can take some time off when school starts again in August.

Ryan is taking me out for my birthday tonight. I am excited b/c we haven't been out on a date in awhile. I have been so busy with school we haven't had time. I can't wait til I am done with school and I don't have to worry about studying and writing papers.

The wedding plans are coming along. I never realized how expensive they are until the other day when I really looked at what I was expecting to pay for everything.

I am so thankful for everyone in my life that has been so supportive in my life. It really hit me this past weekend when I had our first wedding shower. I was amazed by how many gifts people brought to just give Ryan and I. Every time I look at them all piled up in the apartment I just think about how blessed we are. :)

Well as you can see my thoughts are all over the place. I am sorry you have to see that on here, but that's how I feel right now.