Less than a MONTH!!

So there is officially less than a month and Ryan and I will be married. Everyone keeps asking if I am nervous or stressed out, and I am not. I don't think people believe me when I say this. But i honestly don't feel stressed out. I think after going through Nursing School I am able to handle more stress without it getting to me like it use to.

I have almost everything done. I just have little things to do. I guess the only major thing I need to do is finish up with the photographer. But other than that everything is decided. I have the gift boxes done (although I might have to redo some, the glue did not work on all of them) I have a few more invitations to hand deliver (will be done at church). Michelle almost has the bubbles done. I guess the only big thing I need to do are the programs. I am trying to decide if I really want to have one. Basically because I don't want to make one. So that is what i need to figure out. I am staying up to date on my thank yous for the most part. People are RSVPing. So for the most part everything is getting done. O and my boss gave me off starting on Tuesday before the wedding :) she said I needed it.

I am working on 6East again. I am working as a nurse aid. I enjoy it. A lady yesterday said I must hate my job while I was helping her to the bathroom. I said "NO, NO I truly enjoy working here." After I left her room I was thinking to myself why would she say that, and then it hit me. Yes I was helping her to the bathroom, yes most people would not think that would be something they would want to do. But I see it as they just encountered the most joyous thing in life. Having a baby, and I am the one that helps them recover from the delivery and be able to care for their new little one. So to me its an enjoyable job. The look on the moms face when you ask about their new little one, is so great and I get to look at that everyday I go to work. Granted I don't want to get out of bed at 5 in the morning but once I get there I remember why I wanted to work there. :) So YES I do enjoy my job and NO I do not hate it.

I forgot to mention we got our honeymoon package in the other day!!! We were so excited. I enjoyed thinking about what we would be doing when we got there!

One bad thing that happened to me last night. I had my first wedding nightmare. I didn't think I was going to have one. But in the dream we were having a wedding outside by a lake, I think, and EVERYTHING was wet from the rain. So I just started raining. Everyone worked hard to fix it and then I was about to walk down the aisle and EVERYTHING was wet again. I started crying again. But then Ryan walked down the aisle and carried me to the alter. Then I woke up..
Could this be a result of all the rain we have had lately?? But we are not having our wedding outside, so I don't know what this means.....

So today consisted of studying ALL day long. I got to the school at 10am and left at 5 something. Honestly I have no idea how I am able to study for such a long period of time. It is probably because of the people I was studying with. We all desperately want to pass our test tomorrow. I am trying really hard not to become anxious about the test. I think that is the problem, I get too nervous and I am not able to think properly.

Reasons I really want to pass this test:
1. To prove to myself I can do it
2. So I do not have to take the test again
3. To shove it in my instructors face (who said I wouldn't pass)
4. So I do not have to take Leadership over again next semester b/c of this stupid test.
5. Because I have prepared so much for this test and I want to do well

On a happy note, my cousin is graduating tomorrow! I am excited for her. (even though I wish i was graduating at the same time).

Ryan got me a massage for my birthday and if I pass my test tomorrow I will be cashing in on that massage on Friday if they have any openings. :) fingers crossed.

I start working in the hospital in two weeks. I am ready to have money again, even though I am not super excited about working. I dont mind it. I do like my job, seeing all the cute babies and the excited families about the new delivery. :)

I am glad its finally sunny outside!!!! It makes me feel better...